Being a person who has pondered suicide on more than one occasion, and being a person who has spent more hours alone then they actually spend with other people, as a person who can’t sleep at night and cries because they feel like there is nothing out there for them, as a person who feels the sting of rejection and hate, and as a Christian I have left all of this at the foot of the cross…Let it all go.
All I want to do right now is
Go sit in a corner, with my arms wrapped around my legs with all the lights off and just cry for hours. Just continue to cry because right now I know this isn’t rock bottom but it’s coming soon and I’m falling apart as it is right now….Once I hit the floor, i don’t know….I feel so helpless, I can’t do anything and i feel like all i’m doing right now is just borrowing time…
All I can do is pray that everything is going to work out just fine….
How can a boy become a man, if his father never showed him what a man was..